"There seems to be a kind of order in the universe (...) But human life is almost pure chaos."
Isn't it funny?
Sometimes you wake up and you find out something's wrong, and then it takes a few more mornings to figure it out what's wrong. I guess I'm in between. There's something really wrong. There's something really wrong with people. I just don't know what it is. Sometimes I think I'm used to this feeling, others it just gets me out of the blue. And right now I just feel that way. I feel confused, dark... I just can't explain it. Sometimes I feel so far away from reality, from this world. Sometimes I feel so tired and sick, I just want to go away. Actualy sometimes I think I lose my way. Life's confuse and dark. Life's a boat in a bottle. I don't know what it is, but it got me, and it won cause right now I feel completely away, almost floating through the time and the space and everything else. Things are not how they used to be. Time changes, people change, moments change. But... Have you ever wondered if moments make us or we make moments? That's something we'll never know. This is all so curious. This is pure chaos. Is it fair? No, of course no. But that's the way it is. Sometimes I found myself feeling so useless, so powerless, speechless... like if I could not move, could not do anything. Despite the way I want the world so bad. Despite the way I want to be free. Despite the way I want to go. Sometimes I just feel like if I don't belong, like if I don't match. And maybe I just don't. At all. Maybe I just can't step up because of this fear inside. Actually this fear, that I don't know how it got me and what it is, has become such a huge part of me. I'm afraid that I'm living someone's life instead of mine. I'm scared about the future. This loneliness scares me. I feel so disappointed with everyone around me. And I'm afraid about knowing I'm the disapponitment.
Music is my cure. It gets into myself and it gives me sense. But then again...
People are strange. People make me confused and dark. This is the pure chaos... But I think of you and it all comes to an end. You give me rest.
I
Isn't it funny?
Sometimes you wake up and you find out something's wrong, and then it takes a few more mornings to figure it out what's wrong. I guess I'm in between. There's something really wrong. There's something really wrong with people. I just don't know what it is. Sometimes I think I'm used to this feeling, others it just gets me out of the blue. And right now I just feel that way. I feel confused, dark... I just can't explain it. Sometimes I feel so far away from reality, from this world. Sometimes I feel so tired and sick, I just want to go away. Actualy sometimes I think I lose my way. Life's confuse and dark. Life's a boat in a bottle. I don't know what it is, but it got me, and it won cause right now I feel completely away, almost floating through the time and the space and everything else. Things are not how they used to be. Time changes, people change, moments change. But... Have you ever wondered if moments make us or we make moments? That's something we'll never know. This is all so curious. This is pure chaos. Is it fair? No, of course no. But that's the way it is. Sometimes I found myself feeling so useless, so powerless, speechless... like if I could not move, could not do anything. Despite the way I want the world so bad. Despite the way I want to be free. Despite the way I want to go. Sometimes I just feel like if I don't belong, like if I don't match. And maybe I just don't. At all. Maybe I just can't step up because of this fear inside. Actually this fear, that I don't know how it got me and what it is, has become such a huge part of me. I'm afraid that I'm living someone's life instead of mine. I'm scared about the future. This loneliness scares me. I feel so disappointed with everyone around me. And I'm afraid about knowing I'm the disapponitment.
Music is my cure. It gets into myself and it gives me sense. But then again...
People are strange. People make me confused and dark. This is the pure chaos... But I think of you and it all comes to an end. You give me rest.
I
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